OVER IT

Hey

Im kinda over everything today, more so this blog and everything surrounding it

I dont feel inspired- which sounds AWFUL coz u are all doing well, but i dont feel inspired to write.....i dont feel that im achieving enuf....i know i know ive done well but i dunno just stuck in a bit of a rut at the moment between the old weight and where i wanna be i guess??????

Its def a whole change of mindset and that but yeh

i think coz im so tired today as well!!

sorry just had to get that out

thanks

A

CLICK!

Well...

this is going to sound pretty shitty to some but i this is the moment i needed in myself

ok i was reading a blog today...........and realised this person is only 10kg lighter than me, but i find her stunning, and "skinny" such a WEIRD moment

so i realised, 10kg is nothing to me at the moment, its falling off like stars outta the sky...

sorry i just had to share that.........................

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

xo

Honesty.....the best policy

Well, i think its time to fess to you all the stats...........................

i think its only then that you can share my real journey

So, pre band i was 166kg, losing 8kg prior to surgery day...was stoked with that!

Now, 9 weeks on, im 145kg, well and truly on my way to skinny hot ass! hahah

It doesnt seem as much of a challenge now that im 145, which is still big but shit, in another 20 ill be 125, and then another 20 im 105...........so in 40kg time (totally gettin that done this year) ill be so so close to under 100................so its not as daunting...

Ill hopefully have some more pics after the weekend...some skinnier lookin pics! hahaha

So all, ive finally shared my darkest deepest secrets with you all! :)

xoxoxo

Lanni B

Slack Bottom Jeans!

Ok ok so ive been slack!!!!! I just dont know waht to type...i get bored with things very easily too haha

but its been a good week, apart from 12 hours of exams! lol

Food choices going really well and excercise too!!! been walkin up the beach with dad who is light lightening fast so its made me work really hard in soft sand too! :S
Plus the gym in the mornings! wooo lol i do love the gym and i bought an ipod so it makes me go super fast on the bike etc! :)

Other than that, getting drunk for the next few weekends in a row, celebratin end of exams tonight and tomorrow night (yes it needs 2 nights worth after the shit i went thru)

i feel so blessed right now, i couldnt be happier in life and then i think of the poor people in the fires and the floods!!! no one deserves that hey! :( so im def shoppin at coles toda! hahah

Clothes are starting to fall off, i have a pair of jeans that i always wear to work and they like are saggin at the ass! its soo funny i cant keep them up!!!

anyway, thats it from me! ill try be better next week
xoxo

Lanni B

Just try to upset me!!!!!!!!

HI!!

Well i cant get the smile off my face!! i feel AMAZING today! :)

Ill start back on tuesday, as you know i felt my band was too tight, sunday no food was successful, monday was even worse adn by the time tuesday came i couldnt eat or drink without feeling really sick and that it stuck!!

Anyway, had appointment with Dr Fill on Tuesday and he took .5ml out, so i now have .5ml in! haha i know it sounds soo tiny but omg what a difference!!! Not only did i lose 5kg in a week and faint at work from heat exhaustion but i hadnt eaten or drunk in a LONG time!

So anyway, Wednesday was amazing for food and drink, i know its totally unhealthy but i had a cold rock vanilla milkshake and what a difference!!! i was happy again! i could drink and eat and ohhh i didnt realise how depressed i had been from struggling with every mouthful!!!

Went to gym this morning, feel sooo good again, and starting to get lots of compliments!! All my clothes are falling off me wooooooooooooooooooooooo so excited about that!

I see my best mate again in like 3 weeks so im hoping she will notice the months worth of weight loss!

Ohh and also my mate has been in Afghan for the past 6 mths and i told her when she got home i will be skinnier...anyway she is home in 2 weeks so im totally excited to see her reaction!!!

Anyway, enough of little miss happy.....i wanna punch myself for bein this happy...im waiting to been thrown back to earth..............im never allowd to stay happy before someone ruins it! lol

Thanks to all

xo

Monday Blues

Hey All

Well weekend was terrible, had alot and alot and alot of trouble with ALL food, and even liquid! decided that im def goin back and getting about .5ml out, its just too much and i think ive got jaundice from producing too much bile!! im turning yellow people!

So yeh thats booked for tomorrow so thats good! just starting to feel really sick, and tired and not very well!

But still went to gym this morning at 5.30, felt so good, worked up a great sweat which always is good! :) but yeh now back at work bored and tired and wondering what this is all for!

I know waht its all for obviously, but im just exhausted!!! and my eye is still twitching after a week, im sick of it! i should go get it checked out but mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just another thing on the list of things to do!

other than that had a good weekend, shopped, slept, uni, boring boring

i need something entertaining in my life grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ok thats it for now

B

TFIF!!!

For those who dont get the title- Thank Fuck its friday!!!!

I have had a long week, between battling with this bitch of a band, gym, studying for my 4 uni exams, working longer hours, mmmm yeh im exhausted!

Had a full on week, gym every morning, eating very little but not hungry at all!!! So my doc said thats how i should be.....maybe a little less but he said the next week should get easier----we'll see

My sister in law has decided to get the band, so im totally excited, im hoping it brings us even closer together as we will have this to share, even tho my bro has it done, girls stick togehter- clearly we do by the way we all blog to each other and the world! hahaha

Gym has been awesome this week, lots of goss to catch up on! hahaha

I have also had a frustrating week with my toxic friend managing to ruin yet another trip ive got booked! We're all heading to this festival next month, goin to have massive weekend, and she was NEVER involved, but now, she has decided to get tickets and she wants in on our accom....now im sorry but she is fkn toxic, i dont fkn want her near me!!!! We are goin to be off tap and i can see the fights happening already!!! Im a lover not a fkn fighter but ive never met n e one more toxic and she has the ability to ruin a weekend in a second!!! so yeh ive been facing that demon this week and trying to rise above and ignore the fact she will be there!!! Her ex, who is also a very good mate of mine agrees i should just ignore her, coz he is coming with me, and she doesnt know that him and i even talk- so this will cause a MASSIVE shit fight! grrrrr

ANYWAY!!!! thank fuck its friday, i think thats really all i need to say again! :)

Have a great weekend!

xoxo