slip

hey guys

im meant to be a happy camper and loving life as things couldnt be more perfect...except...

my health has gone to shit....im scared that my band has slipped, i woke up this morning and where my band is, well its soooo sore, like to touch and everything....its just a constant pain, fluids are being a night mare and its just making me feel nauseus....i hate it!!! im having an ultrasound tomorrow for a hernia also....

but on a happy note, i have finished uni, official graduation is march 2010... i finished my WHSO course, i just got back from a fkn hectic messy fun week in melbourne, i got on tv hahaha drunk bitch!

how is everyone tho!? can someone give me advice about my biatch of a band! :(

Put on a happy face.....

Hey All,

Well its been forever since i have been on here, wow!!! Sorry ive been so slack!

Updates
- I have 4 weeks left at uni, and im done, sitting on Distinctions, so couldnt be happier!
- Had a pay rise so really happy with that
- Heading to the melbourne cup- in a strapless dress
- Oh did i mention im 105kg now!? yahooo nearlly double digits!
- The boy is amazing <3

Ok so i have been doing so well with the band etc, i really dont let it control me as others tend to and i find it works, i excercise heaps, and love it, eat well (mostly) haha my weakness is still milkshakes...mmmmm but look if you cant let yourself slip like that a few times, then REALLY your not in control....i dont care if i dont lose a kg a week, or a month, to be honest, im happier, fitter, and healthier than i think i have EVER been in my life.

I have an amazing support group, i must admit only 2 of them have the band, but htey are the most sensible amazing girls! Love u 2 (u know who u are)

I will try and get a new pic to upload, coz you wouldnt believe the changes

TOTALLY LOVING LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bragging Rights

Ok, i need to blog this, im too excited

So im gunna brag, i apologise, i know how annoying it is! haha

First----- im down 45kg now, loving it, am size 18/20 and nearlly under 120kg! woo

Second-----i kinda started a business doing photography and omg the response is AMAZING i have so much work lined up its AWESOME, and im self taught! so yeah im pumped to say the least!

Third----I just got all my uni results back and i passed them all! YEOOOO which means i have one semester, one very hard slogging semester left and ill be fully qualified HR practicioner! yesssssss

Fourth-----a guy that has been around for a while and i are totally together, so so happy, and having a blast, we go out and get drunk with both our mates, my cirlce of friends has doubled....

Fifth-----my mum is FINALLY excited that she is getting the band in 2 weeks!!!!

So overall life is AWESOME!! couldnt be happier..........................spesh shout out to Chels and Maddie..................love u 2 girls!!!! xxxxxxxxx

Slight Relapse

Hi
Having a thoughtful day so thought id blog it
Update- ive lost 40.3kg at last tally, im now 126.00kg...compared to my 166 in December, im stoked....6 months and 40kg gone! yeeoo

Thoughts for the day.....

dont let the band run ur life....life is out there...fkn enjoy it!!!!

We got the band coz we were morbidly obsese....so celebrate life, not the band!

Im writing this as my mum is about to get the band and ive tried to offer her some words of wisdom.....and the above is what i gave her!!!

I havent changed my life for the band, im still partying, celebrating and living my life, but just gaining bits of confidence back as i do so!

Im eating very little still, but its great, just need to get some more iron, but ive sorted that now!
Anyway, got so many little trips planned, and maybe a big move soon, so hopin it all pulls off

anyway- thats my little relapse to blogging, ill kick myself for it next week! lol

Thanks for listening to my rant!

OVER IT

Hey

Im kinda over everything today, more so this blog and everything surrounding it

I dont feel inspired- which sounds AWFUL coz u are all doing well, but i dont feel inspired to write.....i dont feel that im achieving enuf....i know i know ive done well but i dunno just stuck in a bit of a rut at the moment between the old weight and where i wanna be i guess??????

Its def a whole change of mindset and that but yeh

i think coz im so tired today as well!!

sorry just had to get that out

thanks

A

CLICK!

Well...

this is going to sound pretty shitty to some but i this is the moment i needed in myself

ok i was reading a blog today...........and realised this person is only 10kg lighter than me, but i find her stunning, and "skinny" such a WEIRD moment

so i realised, 10kg is nothing to me at the moment, its falling off like stars outta the sky...

sorry i just had to share that.........................

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

xo

Honesty.....the best policy

Well, i think its time to fess to you all the stats...........................

i think its only then that you can share my real journey

So, pre band i was 166kg, losing 8kg prior to surgery day...was stoked with that!

Now, 9 weeks on, im 145kg, well and truly on my way to skinny hot ass! hahah

It doesnt seem as much of a challenge now that im 145, which is still big but shit, in another 20 ill be 125, and then another 20 im 105...........so in 40kg time (totally gettin that done this year) ill be so so close to under 100................so its not as daunting...

Ill hopefully have some more pics after the weekend...some skinnier lookin pics! hahaha

So all, ive finally shared my darkest deepest secrets with you all! :)

xoxoxo

Lanni B

Slack Bottom Jeans!

Ok ok so ive been slack!!!!! I just dont know waht to type...i get bored with things very easily too haha

but its been a good week, apart from 12 hours of exams! lol

Food choices going really well and excercise too!!! been walkin up the beach with dad who is light lightening fast so its made me work really hard in soft sand too! :S
Plus the gym in the mornings! wooo lol i do love the gym and i bought an ipod so it makes me go super fast on the bike etc! :)

Other than that, getting drunk for the next few weekends in a row, celebratin end of exams tonight and tomorrow night (yes it needs 2 nights worth after the shit i went thru)

i feel so blessed right now, i couldnt be happier in life and then i think of the poor people in the fires and the floods!!! no one deserves that hey! :( so im def shoppin at coles toda! hahah

Clothes are starting to fall off, i have a pair of jeans that i always wear to work and they like are saggin at the ass! its soo funny i cant keep them up!!!

anyway, thats it from me! ill try be better next week
xoxo

Lanni B

Just try to upset me!!!!!!!!

HI!!

Well i cant get the smile off my face!! i feel AMAZING today! :)

Ill start back on tuesday, as you know i felt my band was too tight, sunday no food was successful, monday was even worse adn by the time tuesday came i couldnt eat or drink without feeling really sick and that it stuck!!

Anyway, had appointment with Dr Fill on Tuesday and he took .5ml out, so i now have .5ml in! haha i know it sounds soo tiny but omg what a difference!!! Not only did i lose 5kg in a week and faint at work from heat exhaustion but i hadnt eaten or drunk in a LONG time!

So anyway, Wednesday was amazing for food and drink, i know its totally unhealthy but i had a cold rock vanilla milkshake and what a difference!!! i was happy again! i could drink and eat and ohhh i didnt realise how depressed i had been from struggling with every mouthful!!!

Went to gym this morning, feel sooo good again, and starting to get lots of compliments!! All my clothes are falling off me wooooooooooooooooooooooo so excited about that!

I see my best mate again in like 3 weeks so im hoping she will notice the months worth of weight loss!

Ohh and also my mate has been in Afghan for the past 6 mths and i told her when she got home i will be skinnier...anyway she is home in 2 weeks so im totally excited to see her reaction!!!

Anyway, enough of little miss happy.....i wanna punch myself for bein this happy...im waiting to been thrown back to earth..............im never allowd to stay happy before someone ruins it! lol

Thanks to all

xo

Monday Blues

Hey All

Well weekend was terrible, had alot and alot and alot of trouble with ALL food, and even liquid! decided that im def goin back and getting about .5ml out, its just too much and i think ive got jaundice from producing too much bile!! im turning yellow people!

So yeh thats booked for tomorrow so thats good! just starting to feel really sick, and tired and not very well!

But still went to gym this morning at 5.30, felt so good, worked up a great sweat which always is good! :) but yeh now back at work bored and tired and wondering what this is all for!

I know waht its all for obviously, but im just exhausted!!! and my eye is still twitching after a week, im sick of it! i should go get it checked out but mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just another thing on the list of things to do!

other than that had a good weekend, shopped, slept, uni, boring boring

i need something entertaining in my life grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ok thats it for now

B

TFIF!!!

For those who dont get the title- Thank Fuck its friday!!!!

I have had a long week, between battling with this bitch of a band, gym, studying for my 4 uni exams, working longer hours, mmmm yeh im exhausted!

Had a full on week, gym every morning, eating very little but not hungry at all!!! So my doc said thats how i should be.....maybe a little less but he said the next week should get easier----we'll see

My sister in law has decided to get the band, so im totally excited, im hoping it brings us even closer together as we will have this to share, even tho my bro has it done, girls stick togehter- clearly we do by the way we all blog to each other and the world! hahaha

Gym has been awesome this week, lots of goss to catch up on! hahaha

I have also had a frustrating week with my toxic friend managing to ruin yet another trip ive got booked! We're all heading to this festival next month, goin to have massive weekend, and she was NEVER involved, but now, she has decided to get tickets and she wants in on our accom....now im sorry but she is fkn toxic, i dont fkn want her near me!!!! We are goin to be off tap and i can see the fights happening already!!! Im a lover not a fkn fighter but ive never met n e one more toxic and she has the ability to ruin a weekend in a second!!! so yeh ive been facing that demon this week and trying to rise above and ignore the fact she will be there!!! Her ex, who is also a very good mate of mine agrees i should just ignore her, coz he is coming with me, and she doesnt know that him and i even talk- so this will cause a MASSIVE shit fight! grrrrr

ANYWAY!!!! thank fuck its friday, i think thats really all i need to say again! :)

Have a great weekend!

xoxo

Tuesday has come too soon!!!

Well, i think i have a severe mondayitis case- ON A TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to gym at 5.40 this morning so i could get a longer work out, now i am so so so so sore! but it was great to catch up with a mate and hear her stories from the weekend!

As for the weekend! well ill start with Friday, coz friday was FILL DAY!

So ive lost 13.6kg total and about 6ish since my op which the doc was stoked about so he put 1ml in the old rockstar (band) and im in two minds that its just right or its too tight!!! weird i know

I can keep fluids down relativly ok, like i have to take it really slow- no skulling wine anymore- how tragic is that!!!

But food is a bit of an ASS!!!! chicken is now the enemy, which is hard for me to say because i LOVE chicken! i had mud crab last night and that seemed ok..ish but i literally had the tiniest piece....so i havent really eaten a great deal except for ice cream and boost juice all weekend- high calories eat my fkn ass out!!!!

So...........the reason im in two minds is coz i have my period at present (sorry ladies) but i do, and im wondering whether it is affecting it!! So im goin to stay on liquids/mushies for a few days and see how i go after that, if its still to tight ill go see him....

I wish i was still away on my awesome weekend it was so awesome to see B (my best mate) and just chill!!!! We had a pretty mad weekend!!! bit of a blur really! hehehe

But anyway, if anyone else had any issues after first fill, or wants to hand over some advice...im all ears :) and ass! hahaha

xoxo

Lanni B

Food Diary Thursday 22nd January

HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well dont i feel like a right clown today! lol i feel like im going crazy! writing yet another report today on strategic mangement- my god most boring subject!!! CRYING!!!!!!!

But on a great note i had a massive great sesh at the gym this morning
did 10mins on the treadmill, then 10 mins on the bike and then weights and then another 20 mins on the bike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It just felt like it was massive, like heaps of work, and i worked real hard, like did heaps of incline on the tready and quite fast and then obviously the weights session was great, im trying to keep my arms toned, i dont want extra skin! YUK

So food wise im going ok i think...

Breakfast- Same as usual, mango smoothie with protein no fibre today put in more mango
Lunch- left over veggies
Dinner- fish and veggies

Snack- im drinking a berocca right now if that counts????

Had plenty of water

oh o fill tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! first ever so a bit scared it will hurt but i cant wait to eat less!!!!

But today might be last post til next week as im heading off for a bingy weekend with my best mate as u know.........so it wont be good hahaha absolute RIOT!!!

anyway.......have a great long weekend everyone HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY!!

ps- im a proud aussie! Wooooo

xoxox

Food Diary Wednesday 21st January

HEY!!!

Today has been soooo freaking stressful!! had a 3000 word report due, you would think by now i would learn to do it sooner, but im a last minute merchant! always have been!!!

But this is just a quick food diary as nothing exciting is happening with me! :)

Breakfast- Strawberry Smoothie with protein and benefibre---- yummmmmm
Lunch- a home made cheesy mac (you know those Simply To Good books? outta that)
Dinner- Lemon chicken and stir fry veggies (home made)

Last night i just had a smoothie for dinner as i got home late!

No gym this morning either as i was soooo exhausted but back to it tomorrow morning!!

Im going away this weekend, straight after my fill which im a bit worried about but im taking my blender with me so i can make smoothies at my mates place, she is fine with that!! she is the bestest bestest friend ever!!!!! WE travelled the world together and i just rate her soo highly!!! If i was "that way inclined" id marry her!! but i love boys! hahaha

sorry im in a CRAZY mood....after writing over 3500 words on logistics management i think u would be too hey!

love u all!! we bandsters are awesome! :0)

xoxoxo

Food Diary Tuesday 20th Dec

Hi!!!

Today i have had

Breakfast- Strawberry Smoothie with benefibre and protein powder added
Snack- Berocca
Lunch- Healthy Choice Chicken Carbanara (those little twin packs)
Dinner- Not sure!!

Water- 1.5L so far and its 1.06pm

Excercise- 20mins cardio, 30mins weights and stretches

Last night i ended up having another smoothie as wasnt that hungry

No real goss or stories today!!

Goin to sit and have a good cry tonight when home and away comes on! :(

Talk soon

Food Diary for Monday 19th Jan

Hey
Bridgets great idea to post a food diary!
Let me know what u think

Ok

6am- Gym (Cardio for 35mins, weights for 20 mins)
7am- Mango Smoothie
11.30- Chicken stir fry, about 3/4 a cup (lunch)
Dinner tonight i dont really know

Plus i have had so far about 1.2L of water!!!

Any comments/thoughts???

What does one say?

Well, im kinda in a really really strange mood....no real reason to be but just am!
I had a lovely weekend with family and at a friends nieces 1st birthday! it was very cute and i managed so well to not eat all the junk that appears at little kids bday parties!!!!! so proud!

I know its early days, but i want more...i want more people to notice and i want more weight gone! Although i dont know how much ive lost now coz our scales are crap and broken! stupid ebay! But im finally due for a fill on friday and i better get one otherwise ill cry, i need this, i need to stop eating so damn much and of the wrong stuff!!! by wrong i mean sugary juices etc!!!

I know its probably bad for me but ive been having frozen mango with some mango and peach yoghurt blended into a smoothie for breakfast....my bro is like when are u goin to stop having that? and im like mmm never? but should i? he said its just empty calories, but to me its fruit and the yoghurt is a good decent one with acidopholous (shit word) and all that....i thought it would be really good for me??? and plus i feel i cant really eat in the mornig but i need something to get me going so i always have that and i put some benefibre in it just to be good

I have been goin to the gym 4 times a week, at 6am, so dedicated hahah although i am loving it! :) One of my very close friends is a trainer at the gym and she just follows me round and we use it as a massive gossip session so its kinda good coz it means time goes fast and i ALWAYS look forward to it!!!

i need to drink more water...mmmm

See, u can tell by my writing that im not all that with it today! hahaha i just wanna go back to bed! i am hectic busy with work and uni lately so i think im a bit stressed! :( i just need a break! lol even after my month off!!

Im heading to the gold coast this weekend to see my bestest friend who i love dearly!!! We are going to have a few wild days together, so it will be interesting to see how i go considering my fill is on friday!!!!

ANYWAY....i wanna shout out to Bridget and Skinnie Minnie....you girls are such awesome friends to have, u make me smile every day!!! So proud of u both!! xoxo

Ok talk soon peepz
xoxoxoxo

Lanni B

Pictures

Ok, so i have FINALLY got a before and after, kinda photo!!!

One pic is taken the day of surgery and the other is today!!! i think u can see that my "shelf" above my ass has reduced, so thats great, other than that no major changes, need to wear tighter clothes!!!! hahaha enjoy! obviously the top one is the day of surgery adn the bottom one is today !

Smile and the world smiles with you....really?

Hi All...

Well, im a bit excited today, i got up and went to the gym for the first time in ages, and i feel sooo good!!!!!!

I had a really cool weekend! I went and did something every day and every night, although i should have been studying or doing my assignments, i was getting depressed that i was never doing anything, so i did sometihng and it made me so happy!!!!

I realised that it doesnt actually take much to enjoy yourself and being with cool people makes all the difference!!!

Im going to throw a shoutout to Skinny Biddy......Bridg...chin up babes, boys are assholes and ur sister doesnt deserve u to show up to her wedding!!!! big hugs!

As for food, well i made a chicken and corn pie on the weekend, more like a quiche, but it has rice and spices etc in the base, so i figure there is my carbs, and then chicken and egg as protein, and zuchhini and corn for veges....and it seems to go down real well, so im eating that for lunches at present! yummm

No fill til the 23rd, and trust me im itching for a fill! i totally need one stat! hahaha but oh well, i guess going to gym and eating well will be good enough for now!

Anyway, i havent done ANY work or uni so i must go!

Talk soon
xoxo

Lanni Battler! ;)

The day that opened my eyes!!

Well, what an amazing morning ive had! and yes bless being back at work for full internet access! hahaha

Firstly, i just want to put a shout out to my banded friends- well done...we've made it through xmas, and new year, and seen the other side of the new year, feeling great at what next new year will be like for all of us!!

Secondly, i have had an awesome morning, ive been a good girl and booked into all the medical wigwam...ie eyes tested, moles checked, checkup at dentist, pap smear (mmm fun), and a normal medical check up...so i feel really good about getting healthy and making sure all is going well! :)

And then, a very special friend asked me whether i think about pre and post banding in relation to the control of food. Now to be honest, i had never thought about it, until i realised that pre banding, if i got the urge to get chinese, as i had a GREAT tendenancy to do, i would just do it, once that idea was there, very little would stop me, even at lunch times i would close our warehouse just so i could drive to get it, pointless excercise but it proves that food was controlling me...and now, i have had a lightening bolt hit me and wake me up...it no longer controls me!!!!!!!!!!!! I was thinking about chinese the other day but i was like ehhhh its going to be such an effort to eat it, i wont enjoy it as much because i have to chew all the flavour out of what is really very flavourless unhealthy food....so instead chose to go home and cook as i could get better flavours etc through healthier food....soooooooo this brings me to a stark conclusion that no, food doesnt control my thoughts any more, im controlling the food, wow!!! I never thought i would hear those words come out! hahaha

So while i still felt amazed at this i wanted to share it with you all! :)

I hope everyones day is as awesome as mine coz shit, we deserve it! ;)

Love to all

Loving Lanni B

New Year!!! New Blog!

Hi All
Wow sorry that it has taken so long to blog again!!! We havent had internet for nearlly a month and yes its killing me!!!!!!!!!!

So today is day one back at work since banding, and a month off! and im soo tired, its only midday and it should be like midnight!!!!

But banding news, well ive lost 12kg since the start now so thats great, thats about 8 weeks work so im really happy! :)

I have been able to eat a fair variety of foods, ive had a few little problems along the way and im sick of burping after eating- any hints, tips, reasoning behind this please advise!

But yeh its going fine, i think i am eating more food, but i get sick of it, like im annoyed at how long it takes etc, i didnt think it would be a hassle but my food goes cold before i can finish it! and i find because everyone else has already finished their meal i stop eating, so im not eating much but im still learning obviously!

But yes i had a quiet new year up north with the family, and then spent new years with friends on an island near home that we have a shack on! so it was so relaxing didnt want to come back!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOO i need sleep!!!!

So yeh, banding all going well, first fill isnt until 23rd january, so ill be hanging for it!!!!!
Starting walking and gym this week, so that will be great! :) cant wait!

All my clothes are so lose! :) its great

anyway, update me with ur lives!
xoxoxox

Lanni B